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《手中线》

天天想你 天天问自己
天下有没有不散的宴席
天天想你 屋里依然好熟悉
就像你都不曾道别离
记忆是手中的线 牵动每一天
缝合了多少的碎片 多少个失眠
哪怕被扎得长满茧
手中的线 放开或许就蓝天
可是我不食言 我喜欢这想念
你住在心里很安全

天天想你 天天问自己
是不是怕忘记你而练习
天天想你 在我身体里延续
这样我们不必再别离
记忆是手中的线 牵动每一天
缝合了多少的碎片 多少个失眠
哪怕被扎得长满茧
手中的线 放开或许就蓝天
可是我不食言 我喜欢这想念
你住在心里很安全
长满茧 手中的线
放开或许就蓝天
可是我不食言 我喜欢这想念
你住在心里很安全

天天想你 就能见到你

明知不可能......但还是......

走·心

平静 是这水 是此刻 

凉风 驱走了 心中忧 

阳光 微微照 暖心底 

漫步 有惊喜 竟偶遇

Reignite

Broken silence

Awakened by a voice

Small, yet powerful

Long path ahead of you

If ever

Whenever you need to

Remember we once crossed paths here

And here I will be

Always

You can find me here

值得

其实有些犹豫
或许是希望得到某种反应
但想想看
即使只有一个懂得珍惜
也是值得的

那天 你们灿烂的笑容
不经意的一句话
让我知道
这一切
都是值得的

只要能力所及
当多几次的圣诞老人
何乐而不为呢

悟

We came to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. --Sam Keen

戏弄

How strange
I can finally fulfil my wish
Yet now that it is fulfilled
It turns out to be something that I did not wish for

Life is full of paradoxes.

咫尺天涯，好无奈。

阴阳

今早又含着泪水走出梦境
清醒后一直不想睁开眼睛
只为了想回去
回去告诉您 好多 太多

在梦里 您已不在
我手中拿着折成异状的纸张
他说 把祝语写在纸上
您一定会收到

一阵抽噎 全身微颤
热泪盈眶 神智模糊
就这样 我离开了那里
我回到了这里

已来不及 又太迟了
最后还是没有机会写任何东西
就离开了

梦里如此 人生也如此

怎么不让我在梦境里弥补
生命中的那份遗憾

买饭

你果然没食言 真的从北京买了＂饭＂给我
＂人吃饭是为了活着，但是人活着不是为了吃饭！＂
谢谢你为我精挑细选这么有意思的＂饭卡＂
有心了:)

Faye 2 Years Ago...

Quarter-Finals




Semi-Finals




Finals

Living with June Cheong and Family @The Arts House 5Jul2010

Faye singing《走在雨中》
(Pianist: Faye's mum aka June Cheong)




Faye singing a duet with her dad 《爱的箴言》+《是否》




It's Love(Taeyeon & Sunny SNSD)




姐妹俩 Faye & Raine with 《我问天》




Raine singing "Never Say Goodbye"

Departure

Just learnt about your sudden departure at class today
Although we were nothing more than just an acquaintance
You were always so generous with your smiles
And words of praise

I've never known your name till today
Always remembered you as the humble lady who sat in that corner
They spoke of you today
Subconsciously, I turned to look in that corner

Your smile, I see, on Pg 78
Let it be with you wherever you are
Always

Indeed, life is fragile. (Handle with care)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Can't believe you actually left on the wrong day
原来你比我还乌龙！哈！
Although this is the Nth time you are leaving
心里难免一丝惆怅

After all, it's been almost 20yrs
Goodness, can't imagine I have tolerated you for so long! :P
OK, shall pop by to visit, year end I hope
If not, I'll see you again next CNY ya? :)

再一次的离别...

It's all coming back to me

分享

刚才在凤山85巴刹吃晚餐时
突然狂风暴雨
一股寒风
忍不住全身一阵颤抖

正要离开时
收碗碟的阿嫂来到我桌
以福建话
问我有没有带伞

因为我没听懂
她问了第二次
然后她说若没带伞可以到后面买
不然淋雨 会很容易生病

顿时 一股莫名的感动
驱走了所有的寒意
果然 人间有情
她 让我上了一堂宝贵的课

谢谢您

Beethoven Virus OST

Next drama to go into the shopping cart:)

生命中不可承受的轻

哦...原来“蒙太奇”是 Montage(法文）

Pause

SHEER INSOLENCE!

1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10

Simple yet effective..
in preventing a volcanic eruption.

Probably you didn't mean it
Perhaps you were really desperate
Maybe I was your last ray of hope
Or could it be...

Still, it does not justify your behaviour just now
算了
That's not the main issue now

Will continue to shape the clay
Till it turns out the way it should be

Simply timeless

Watching the clips brings back fond childhood memories
Playing the songs repeatedly in the car and singing along with siblings
Memorizing all the lyrics
Very lucky to have watched the musical 3 times
With family and friends

Favourite song which was always on repeat mode -
On My Own
Still prefer Frances Ruffelle's version to Lea Salonga's
Didn't expect to find this clip :)



Watching the performance clip of the original London cast indeed
stirs up lots of emotions
Wonder if I'll have another chance to watch Les Miserables...

你知错吗

看她绽开笑容的那一刹那
心头不禁揪得更紧
透过泪水看着她津津有味地讲着
又一部的韩剧情节

空气渐渐吞噬了她的话
只坐在她身旁 跟着一起微笑
灿烂的微笑
沉重的心情

那么多心伤
因你而起
何时 你才会成长
何时 你才会听话

握着方向盘往前走
又是你　让泪直流

Permanent Scars

Stumped by your words, totally.
Every word staring back at me
In contempt
Laughing mockingly

Nothing has changed
Yet, nothing has remained the same
As you plant your seeds of imagination

A lingering pain
Stirring from within
As I close my eyes and watch the disturbing images
Of those words
Flashing across, flashing their sinister grin

3rd time scaling a mountain
But this time
It was an arduous climb
Guess i'm really getting old...
Stamina not as before

Slight disappointment as we did not reach the summit
Not even halfway there and we had a girl with a sprained ankle
And of course, as we were behind time and due to climate conditions
We decided to start our descent

Just at this moment
Heavy downpour
First time...2 hrs in the rain
First time...2 leeches on my neck
Quite an experience!

Went for a firefly cruise on the second night
Well, Murphy's Law struck upon us again
Boat engine stalled as we were making our way back
That moment, to me, seemed like the climax of the cruise
No one seemed interested in the fireflies anymore
Silence after a few failed attempts to restart the engine
Fortunately we were saved soon after

Recuperation time now..

你知道吗

对你加倍的关怀　你感受不到
对你百般的包容　你感受不到
为你付出的一切　你感受不到

其实
你已在心坎中
占有一席之地

只是
你不知道

心语(雨）

Lately the weather has been rather unpredictable
One moment sunny, and the next moment, you see dark clouds looming over
Sometimes even raining when it's sunny

就像你的喜怒无常
难以捉摸

你的反复无常
让我不知所措

此刻的心情
窗外的天气

但愿这一切之后
你会看到遥远中
那一道彩虹

Moments to cherish

Didn't start off the LNY very well
LNY's eve was the worst, agonizing morning
Subsequently the flu bug and others came along

Despite the unbearable moments,
still had some fun nonetheless :)
Played Taboo with family, it was hilarious!
My 2nd sis & I make a great team! Haha!
More laughter when all of us watched All's Well Ends Well @E-Hub

Celebrated Faye's 7th birthday on 23Jan
Was certainly entertained by both nieces!

Faye's solo: Part of your World



Hahn's solo: Part of your World (Incomplete cos digicam batt went flat)



Catch the duo in action!
恭喜恭喜：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V4fIE_lIqcI&feature=channel

贺新年：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JPNeRnEW7e8&feature=channel

A Whole New World

Who says that you are condemned?
Who says that you will never succeed?
Who says that a leopard will never change its spots?
Who says that "once a pai kia, forever a pai kia"?

Defiant, problematic, recalcitrant, disruptive, suspension, gangster, smoker, police record...all these once associated with you.

Now, you've blossomed into a fine young chap, awaiting to embrace the new world ahead of you.

A short conversation, eyes brimming with tears, a heart filled with joy.

A tiring journey it may be...but people like you, make it all worthwhile.

Secrets

Scrolled down the list and realised quite a number of drafted posts unpublished
Incomplete posts...
A puzzle with missing jigsaw pieces
Pieces which I will never find

Some complete
Yet
Maybe they should just remain invisible

Some things are left better unsaid...

突然好想你

我的心情
你懂吗？
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


（五月天）
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚 绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今 终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你 你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那么甜 那么美 那么相信
那么疯 那么热烈的曾经
为何我们 还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你 你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚 绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决心自己过
没有你
却又突然 听到你的消息
～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

学习

When you start feeling discontented with what you have,
It is then that you are asking for too much.

Yet, to strike a balance between contentment and pursuit of one's wants
has never been easy.

Still learning...

信

寻寻觅觅
竟然在眼前
是我操之过急
也因不认识你
才会视而不见

总之　很开心
终于找到你了！

Tunisia...No more...

2105hrs
Should be at the airport now.
Awaiting to board the flight to Tunisia.
However, family and friends all worried...after the terrorist saga that hit India.
Well, cos Tunisia seems to be a probable target for terrorist attacks too.

Dilemma.
Alas, cancelled it at the eleventh hour.
Finally mustered the courage to break the news to ZLS.
Never felt so bad for such a long time.
Backing out at the last minute...leaving her to go alone.

Anyway, wish ZLS a safe trip...and looking forward to her Tunisia photos (supposed to let me see and make me regret eh..heh..)

无心害你

Totally consumed in the melodramatic Hong Kong drama (家好月圆) this afternoon
Eyes couldn't leave the magic box at all
Patience and self-control...needed so much of that
To prevent myself from jumping straight to the final episode

Finally...I made my way through to the finale..
Justice prevails after all
As always in tv dramas
But...in reality too?

2E2'08

Super short class time with them today
So I had to summarize whatever I wanted to say
2 years..now seem too short

So unique in their own ways, yet so united
Multi-personalities:
Creative - Artistic talent.....doodling during lesson
Ambitious - Dares to dream......sleeping during lesson
Energetic - Above-average stamina......hopping around during lesson
Eloquent - Gift of the gab......yakking away during lesson (as though long-lost pals)
Humorous - Inject humour when talking......cracking lame jokes during lesson
And many more... :)

A class of angels...soon to part ways
“老师！他拿了我的书！”...“老师！世安换位！”....those were the days

Captured your smiles today
These memories...are here to stay

Sandy Lam Concert

Was at Indoor Stadium last night to catch "Sandy Lam Live in Singapore 2008" concert
Second live concert experience...I think...
Never been so close to the stage before
Seat was however flanking the stage..which explains the aching neck after the concert


Crowd was super high...stood and waved their lightsticks and sang along
Second half of the concert was a medley of her older songs, which I enjoyed better:)
Great voice...Awesome band...Unforgettable performance...

你们

想你们的真
想你们的纯
想你们的疯
想你们的闹

想你们的一切一切
就在这一刻

突然下起的这场太阳雨
此时此刻的心情

1E3'05: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QXZkKajUGMI

2E3'06: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ddfz6bUaiBk

A message from you

2 years since you've graduated...and no news from you
Didn't expect to hear from you today
You told her to tell me that you've quit gambling already
Happiest news I heard today! :)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Frail-looking you...always sitting at the back of the classroom
Good with figures...Helping classmates solve Math sums
And always calculating how much more to bet on to recoup your losses
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Early this year was the last time I saw you
Playing pool with a group of "smoky" friends
Blonde hair~Pale~Skinny~"Beng-ish"
A stark contrast compared to the old you

Hopefully your NS stint during the next 2 yrs will toughen you up
Till then....will I still recognize you...?

Ranting...

Sometimes, they're simply ludicrous!
That's why..family upbringing is important
It's no wonder why you are like that
Not entirely your fault I guess
They have a part to play...for what has happened
Not even apologetic...not a tinge even..
The world has turned upside-down!

Neverending grouses....

Faye's Finals @Sheng Siong Show

“对面的观众看过来”：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsu3qE5ecN4

Congrats Faye Faye! For emerging champion in the Finals!

Faye during Semi-Finals

Solo Performance "读书郎" : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dn2NjPgfGA

PK Song "Superstar": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oC8F0HoJJ08&feature=user


Hope you enjoy yourself during the Finals this Saturday 19 Jul ! 加油！

My niece's performance @Sheng Siong Show 14 Jun 2008

健康歌：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oe59gSD6pbo

细水长流：http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aZ6t7QS-GaY

霏霏，你进入半决赛了！要加油哦！

Her next performance will be end of July. Stay tuned! =)

Faye before the show.

Hahn at the show to support her sis! 姐，加油！

细水长流- - Faye's Version

钢琴弹奏：大姐

合唱：6岁外甥女（霏霏）, 姐夫

哈 听说霏霏前晚居然在熟睡时哼唱“年少时候...”
不知是不是因备受参赛压力
或是因不停练歌的缘故
导致梦中唱歌

Anyway, wish Faye all the best for this Saturday's Sheng Siong singing competition! :)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 《细水长流》歌词

年少時候 谁沒有梦
无意之中 你将心愿透露
就在你生日的時候 我将小小口琴送
最难忘记 你的笑容
友情的细水慢慢流 流进了你我的心中
曾在球场边为你欢呼 你跌伤我背负
夜里流星飞渡 想象着他日的路途
晚风听着我们壮志无数
年少时候 谁沒有愁
满腔愤慨 唯有你能听得懂
每当我失意的时候 你将那首歌吹奏
琴声悠悠 解我 情愁
岁月的细水慢慢流 流到了別离的时候
轻拍你的肩 听我说朋友不要太惆悵
霓虹纵然再嚣張 我们的步履有方向
成败不论切莫将昔日遗忘
多年以后 又再相逢
我们都有了疲倦的笑容
问一声我的朋友 何时再为我吹奏
是否依旧 是否依旧
岁月的细水慢慢流 流到了別离的時候
轻拍你的肩 听我说朋友不要太惆悵
霓虹纵然再嚣張 我们的步履有方向
成败不论切莫将昔日遗忘
多年以后 又再相逢
我们都有了疲倦的笑容
问一声我的朋友 何时再为我吹奏
是否依旧 是否依旧
人生的际遇千百种 但有知心长相重
人愿长久 水愿长流 年少時候

一失足成千古恨

知道你们是罪魁祸首之后
不信 纳罕 失望　心痛

你说　当时没想到后果
也知　现在后悔已太迟
太多的为什么
已不太重要了

要得到大家的宽恕　信任
你说你会努力
前路波折重重　不容易走
既然选择了行这条路
就继续往前走吧　

Falling

Seems like my threshold of tolerance is slowly diminishing
Can't hold back my anger as well as before
Starting to feel a tingling sharp pain as I use a little more strength

A faltering sign, I wish not...
Jaded, definitely not...

Gotta learn to take things in my stride
And not let the petty stuff in life bring me down

In memory of you

Suddenly dawned on me that today is the day
If not for the hanging frame at the stairway
This day would have lost much of its significance
To me

Try as i might, I can't seem to hear your voice anymore
Not even our last conversation can I recall
The more I want to hold on, the faster it slips away
Memories of you

What's left behind
Are recurring images of your wanly expressions
Your stifled cries of agony
Reverberating through the dead air and cold silence

May you be devoid of all suffering, wherever you are.

Chipmunk

A teacher asks a student to write a 5000-word essay. The student hands in a piece of paper with 5 pictures instead.

Teacher (bewildered look) : Eh, I asked you to write a 5000-word essay, right? Why did you give me 5 pictures huh?

Student: Aiyah, a picture paints a thousand words mah!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Stunned for a moment.

Impressed I must say, to think he knows that phrase, considering that he spews vulgarities every now and then.

If only he can put his wit to better use.

背叛

我不是一个好演员

也没有入微的洞察力

与其说我不能

其实我是不想

没勇气掀开真实的帘幕

只愿一直躲在它的背后

但犹如扫不去的灰尘

妳的叮咛萦绕在耳旁

站在舞台 竭嘶底里的无声呐喊

恍然发现 原来你已坐在观众席

你已知道 我由始至终只在演戏

困陷

下雨了
井里的水面不断升高

掉落深井的我
会逐渐被水淹没
还是
浮在水面慢慢往上升

新北投+士林夜市

台北市政府 + 五分埔

九份- 漫长之旅

忠孝復興

西门町

一夜的穿街绕巷 只为寻找美食
所幸得来全不费功夫
虽双腿已 cannot make it

满街年轻男女都很哈日哈韩
目睹着非法小贩推着手推车
仓皇逃离警察的追捕
What a sight!

台北 Day 1

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听天由命

天啊 刚才友人惊天动地的一通电话
害得我忧心如焚　整颗心七上八下

原来刚才与几位朋友吃午餐时
其中一位患有口腔疱疹　
其实对它的了解也不多
只知道它是一种终身疾病　一种易传播的病

看来　又要验血了
唉　祸不单行的一年

梦想成真

My Grammy

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不久前认识了一位志趣相投的“阿伯”
他简直是“Antique King"
家里收藏的古董琳琅满目　十分羡慕

昨天终于实现了已久的愿望
买了“阿伯”其中一台唱片机
上面还印着 HMV 的标志
（有人跟我说HMV是“Hit Music Videos”，也有人说是“Home-Made Videos". 原来是“His Master's Voice"!)

独自听着金喇叭播放出经典老歌
虽然听不清楚歌中的词
但对我来说　是极大的享受

希望我的邻居也有同感（哈哈！）

doramon aka 'intellimon'

明早妳就要远赴北京
其实还真有点舍不得
看着妳收拾着行李箱
我却是一副若无其事

也不知妳这次出远门
会在那里待多长时间
只知道　妳走后
我们会　想念妳

多些寂寥　少些嬉闹
多些无助　少些依赖
在你已不在时

绕口令

下午　小外甥女无意间闯进房间
说了一段绕口令
因为是第一次　我颇感惊讶
年仅五岁的她　一袋的惊喜

《四和十》
四是四，十是十，
十四是十四，四十是四十，
十四不是四十，四十不是十四。

港澳之旅

民以食为天！

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秋色的心

两张鬼脸映入眼帘

一股莫名的忧　油然而生

曾经的淘气　疯狂　欢笑声

似乎已被木框牢牢封锁着

重复读着存储已久的简讯

一个月前　三个月前　三年前

简单的几句　无数的回忆

简单的几句　与现实隔离

终于领教了沉默的威力

忐忑　无助　畏惧

实在招架不住

好像在期待什么的

始终没出现

始终不会出现

停歇

雨水打在挡风玻璃上
渐渐　眼前景物模糊了
只见轮廓　轮廓消失了
前景茫茫一片

顿时茫然　该何去何从
谁来指引方向

无人　唯我
搁浅了的我

雨　嘀嗒嘀嗒不停地下

病魔

最近得了风疹
看遍了中西医
药丸苦药打针
样样都试过了
并无好转迹象

虽花了大笔医药费
但这几周内
我确实获得了不少

家人朋友同事的关心
甚至“十口月”的金玉良言
都让我有点受宠若惊

无比的幸福
无限的感激
默默的感谢

今日去验血　
希望无大碍

。。。　。。。

过往无忧无痒的日子
是每夜等待着的奇迹
是每早睁眸后的祈求

等待着　祈求着。。。

道别过客

永恒　往往不会长命
短暂　永远追随在后
到底有多少个永恒
可以真的直到永远

与其执着于某事物
何不学会如何释怀
快乐　有时不是拥有它
快乐　或许在失去它后

总有一天你会走　只希望　
编织美好的回忆　在你离去前
重温美好的回忆　在你离去后

尽管如此
为何这场雨似乎永不停息
怎么我的心情还是那么灰

久久一次

好久没这样发泄了
但　为什么发泄后的心情
却还那么糟

Perhaps it's the haze that has clouded my thoughts
Can't seem to think properly

还是别想太多
要不然　
很快就会被送进IMH咯！

Reflection

I have failed.

大扫除

好不容易　花了约8小时打扫及整理房间
当然　并非房间大
而是垃圾实在多　

因为念旧　花了大半时间犹豫不决
不知该不该扔掉某些东西
最终　还是依依不舍地与它们告别
目送它们进四大黑色垃圾袋

收拾过程犹如走进时光隧道
高中　代课　大学　
挖出了一堆又一堆　埋在灰尘中的废纸
回溯过去　时光倒流......

最怀念的高中日子
看着那些历史题　好似陌生　不晓得当年是如何过关的
天啊　竟然没交上我的作文　对不起张老师！
还记得　您每次催我交作业
别人在写第二篇作文时　我还在写第一篇作文
一张印出来的电邮　那年的教师节晚上　您竟然回复了我的电邮
煞费苦心　为我解答练习题　谢谢您Ms Tan!
庆幸自己当时有一群很棒的老师　

最难忘的代课经验
找到了我在俊源小学代课时用的文件夹
初次的教学体验　虽短短的4个月　但刻骨铭心
看着学生名单　依稀记得他们的脸孔　但有些已毫无印象
奇妙的是　曾经教过的小学生　竟然在若干年后成为我的中学生
再次重逢　无比快乐

最优哉的大学时光
床底的相簿泛黄了　然而张张照片都散发着我们的青春　
一张在食堂拍的合照　不禁联想到我们的老地方　食堂的某角落
每当下课后　一定会到那儿会合　赶上最新八卦新闻　嬉笑一番　顺便填饱肚子
这样混了三年

零零散散的信封　内容温馨　
只可惜现今大家都各忙自己的生活　彼此疏远了　
这片刻　我正在想着你
期待你我相见的那一天



　

Discovering Talents

Went to watch the Fountain Fest today at Sentosa. Huge crowd, great performance! Actually, the initial idea was to support my students who were performing, but somehow, for some reason or another, I ended up being the school photographer. Nonetheless, quite a good experience.

Wow, there are so many budding musicians amongst JYSS students. Regret not joining the band during secondary school days, have always wanted to learn how to play the flute and some other instruments. Maybe will get one of them to teach me someday! =) Anyway, seeing the students beam with pride on stage, was indeed gratifying, especially so for the students who are always not so serious during lessons. （上课一条虫，上CCA 一条龙，哈！）All the hidden talents...

OK, here are some snippets of the Fountain Fest.

异想天开

很奇怪
你的联络号码
仍存在手机里

是不是
把你名字删掉
遗忘就会替而代之呢

很遗憾
偶然相逢后
没能再相遇

这号码
还属于你吗
或已有新主人

如果
号码是给你直往天国的专线
如果。。。

迄今 仍无法释怀
这次的离别
不会是再见的开始

抉择

我说 不要灰心
我感到灰心了

我说 别无奈
我真的好无奈

我说 别放弃
你想放弃吗

手中的火柴
可点燃希望
也可烧毁梦想

你要一个怎样的故事结局呢

您

昨天 您听到了吗
我无言的问候

是啊 五年了
五年前的昨天
您悄然地离去
您忘了说再见

是吗 五年了
五年后的今天
我以为时间能吹走伤感
直到 我尝到泪的咸

原来 时间吹不走
我对您的思念

我的呼唤 您听到了吗
您的笑容 终于看见了

感言点滴

In the twinkling of an eye and it's Lunar New Year once again. Starting to miss my childhood days, those carefree and happy moments. Gone with the wind, leaving behind fragments of memories, which are slipping away from me bit by bit. Guess I'm really getting old.
Went to visit some not-so-close relatives just now, people whom I only see about twice a year. Those kids have changed so much, now that they have all grown up. As for their parents, they asked the same questions as last year -- So what are you working as now? Oh, which school? Which subject do you teach? I remember repeating my answers every time we meet. Ya, one of them commented, "哦你教华文啊?可是你从来没有读过华校对吗?" Yes, English has always been my first language, but I've always liked the Chinese Language and culture. Maybe I'm just over-sensitive, but I somehow felt a tinge of disdain in his tone. Afterall, they are all 华校生.
Well, this Chinese New Year is going to be different. It's not going to be a holiday. I'll have to use this long break to mark their essays and assignments. Hope to do more for them, whilst I have the energy and drive. 可是我不知道自己还能支撑多久。Most of them don't seem to have any interest in Chinese at all. Guess it's time to reflect on my teaching style and techniques again. Oh yes, they seem to be appearing in my dreams more often now, wonder what that means. Hmm....
好吧，恭祝大家幸福安康，如意吉祥！

熟睡的流星

漫无目的地走在街上
勾起了当年的回忆
同样的地点 不同的心情
眼前的景色依旧 但就是有种说不出的陌生

不断地捕捉每一个熟悉的画面
想追寻快乐的从前
原来这是个无结果的追索
因为快乐的回忆只能回味 不能再次拥有

璀璨的岁月就像流星 划过你我的生命
虽短暂 但那瞬间的美丽 足以让我无憾一生

等待 流星再划过的那一刻

Sydney...Here I Come..

Finally! I can take a breather! Going to fly to sydney this midnight! Decided only this afternoon, super last minute. It all started this morning when my sis smsed me to say that she has booked a free air ticket(redeemed from her krisFlyer points) for me to join her at Sydney for about a week. This is very timely indeed, especially after 2 exhaustive days at the Staff Seminar (23-24 Nov) @Downtown East. Whew, in seventh heaven now!

Alas, still in school now trying to churn out the teaching materials for next year. Have not even packed my lugguage, and I've only a few more hours left before I fly off. Guess I've to go home earlier than scheduled.

It's a race against time now, no time to lose! Be right back!

献给1E3'05

又一次
我看到了 你们的笑颜
仿佛听到了你们的笑声 你们的歌声
奇怪的是 你们的吵闹 我最想念

这年里
你们共同经历了不少苦与乐
而这些苦与乐 伴随着你们成长
也让你们更加珍惜彼此之间的友谊

想当初
老师每投诉一次 我就骂一次
有时一波未平 一波又起
骂了无数次 我其实已束手无策
你们这一班啊！

渐渐地
我看到了你们的转变
有些变得更合群 更团结 更开朗 更好动
有些女生变得更爱打扮 男生也学会撒娇

但有些仍一样花痴
一直想着为什么老师不是周杰伦
结果在自己的梦幻世界中梦游

一眨眼 你们就要升上中二班了
因为将要各分东西 难免会有些依依不舍
但愿你们的友谊细水长流
衷心祝福你们！

Reminiscence

Finally! After much procrastination, I've completed the video for my class 1E3. Regretted not starting earlier, otherwise I might have done a better job, but too late for regrets now. Always the case.
Kind of hard to believe that ten months have just flown by, just like that. I still remember on that very first day of school (3 Jan 05), as I stepped into 1E3 classroom, most of the students looked apprehensive, some seemed anxious and uneasy, and others appeared scared. The next few days, the class was always quiet during lessons, too quiet. I wondered to myself, oh no, am I too fierce? What should I do to make them break the ice?
However, I was unduly worried. Never did I expect that 1E3 would make a name for themselves so soon, well, not a very good name though. Teachers were coming to me one by one to complain about them, and within 2 months, they were "well-known" for being noisy. Finally revealing their true colours.
The process of video-editing was indeed heart-warming. I could literally see the transformation of the students - how they gradually bonded with one another, how some students started to open up to others, etc. As I added the various photos and video clips of them, I was also laughing to myself, especially when I added photos of their cheeky looks and funny expressions. =) We should always keep the happy memories.
Really proud of them when they came in 3rd for the Dance Competition and 1st for the Inter-Class Talentime. Underestimated their talents. Haha. Sometimes, I really don't what these kids are up to. One moment, they can be laughing together, and the next moment, they can be fighting with one another. No doubt there will always be conflicts once in a while, afterall, it takes both sunshine and rain to make life's rainbows. Guess their bonds of friendship became even stronger after that.
Today is the last day of school for them. After returning them their report books, I showed the class the video. I was shocked that most of them started to cry after viewing the video. (Maybe the songs I chose were kind of melancholic.) It was an overwhelming sight, especially when I saw the boys in tears as well. (Had to hold back my tears) But it just goes to show how closely-knitted they were as a class. Soon, they started to ask if they could be streamed into the same class next year. These kids ah...
Though I had to sacrifice my sleep last night to edit the video and to burn it for each of them, it was worth it. At least they have a class momento now, and they can relive the memories they had in 1E3 in the years to come.

Wisdom No More - Aftermath

"Yes, it's definitely a wisdom tooth." He said it as a matter-of-factly. How calm his tone, a stark contrast to my then trembling state. I can't believe it, my worst nightmare has once again decided to pay me a visit, just when I thought it had left me for good six years ago.
Before the surgery, Mr Dentist explained to me briefly the entire process and the after effects of the op. (which is pain of course! plus some abrasion on the lips, etc) Actually, I thought he would only jab me once, but he gave me THREE injections into my gums!
Gosh, that's just the prelude.
Thankfully, they blindfolded me throughout the one-hour ordeal. How I wished they sealed my ears too. Finally, after what seemed like a tug-of-war (Mr Dentist vs Tooth), my wisdom tooth was extracted, in symmetrical halves. Too big, he said.
Tried to sleep after I got home, tossed and turned in pain for several hours before 周公 agreed to meet me. Next morning, most of the pain was gone, but my chin still felt numb. Unfortunately, Mr Dentist said that this was a sign of nerve inflammation, which would take a few weeks to recover.
Till now, it's still porridge meal after meal. A good detox programme, or maybe my second childhood - some friends say.

破碎的快乐

我周围的朋友都是好人 我总是这么认为
你太单纯了 他们说 但我喜欢这样的单纯
至少 它让我快乐

然而有一天 自己制造的快乐必定难逃魔掌
那瞬间的绝望 就一笔抹煞了多年来的快乐
痛心的现实 我生命的警钟 这辈子的感叹

珍惜仅存的单纯 再次找寻遗失的快乐

原来如此

我总是盼望能在人潮里与你邂逅
可是你没有出现　只有希望一直陪伴着我
一年　两年　五年　数年

终于　我真的在人潮中看到了你
迟疑和犹豫没打招呼就赶走了心中的兴奋
一秒　两秒　五秒　数秒

数年的等待只换来数秒的擦肩而过
原来　如愿以偿
只不过如此而已

　

影

眼前熟悉的脸孔 慢慢逼近 渐变模糊

那张脸 显得有点茫然 是迷失方向了吗
那双眸 已失去了神采 仅存疲惫的诡笑
那张脸 这么近 但逐渐从我视线中溜走
我对它说 你别再逃避了

一直以来 你不是满腔热忱 充满信心吗
逆来顺受 不就是你的专长吗
我还记得 你曾说过 永远不要怕黑影
因为 它只不过表示附近有光在照耀

眼前熟悉的脸孔 慢慢逼近 原来是我

重逢

轻敲打着琴键 想为你写一首歌
打开破旧的回忆箱 努力地翻找
才惊觉原来没有你的一丝痕迹

最近与你相逢 回忆神奇般地复活
你的笑容一如往昔 一样难以捉摸
游戏又将开始 但这次我选择弃权

原来海面看似风平浪静 但暗潮汹涌
原来蓝天白云的不远处 是乌云密布
原来平日笑口常开的我 在强颜欢笑

就让回忆继续迷路 而不再回来吧

故事

有一天　一对夫妻在森林里遇到一只老虎
霎时间　丈夫没等妻子就独自跑向另一方

有人说　这种贪生怕死的行为直叫人心寒
有人问　世间上所谓的真爱只是美丽童话？

事实上　丈夫边跑边喊“我们的宝宝就由你照顾了！”
就这样　他成功地引开老虎　救了爱妻一命

有时候　爱一个人不必挂在嘴边
我觉得　实际行动胜过千言万语

平凡中的不平凡

别走得太快 花草的芳香 你闻到了吗
别走得太快 暮色的绚烂 你看到了吗
别走得太快 海浪的澎湃 你听到了吗

有时侯 我们应该放慢脚步 沉浸在自然界中
仰望蓝天 张开双手 拥抱阳光
这何尝不是一种享受 一种浪漫

去感受吧 无价的自然美 一直等待着你
学习珍惜身边一切的理所当然
谁不知道 但谈何容易

失落海平线

词: Benny C
主唱: 欧得洋

把回忆扛在肩膀 我贴上 要小心轻放
天气晴朗 适合飞往 没有你的地方
寄物柜第九排左边第三行 有我给你最后祝福叫遗忘
选了靠窗座位一路眺望 浮云一朵一朵卷起往事一幕一幕掠过

(怎么)我看不见 谁会在终点 多渴望是你双眼 我忘了飞多远
失落海平线 再找不到爱情地图完美的圆
我听不见 你说的再见 日以继夜地回旋 空转了几光年
失落海平线 是你每天对爱画着结束的圆圈

我听不见 你说的再见 日以继夜地回旋 空转了几光年
失落海平线 是我每天为爱绕着孤单弧线
别说再见 当爱被拉远 以为不睁开双眼 梦可以久一点
我爱你竟然变成 地球每天画着结束的圆圈

献给我的学生

你们是晨曦的阳光 青春而又充满活力
你们是雨后的彩虹 躲在失意背后的希望
你们是夜空的闪星 享受着宇宙间的自由
你们是魔鬼般的天使 调皮捣蛋但本性善良

你们走入我的世界 为我生命谱上新曲
无论曲子是忧伤或快乐 它们都是富有情感的
别小看你的笑容 它的坦诚与纯真
足以让我忘却烦恼 犹如一个快乐仙

感谢你们在我世界里留下的足迹
你们不是我生命中的过客
而是我生命里的一部分 不能缺少的部分

长大

仿佛昨天 我们还是知己
曾几何时 你我成陌生人
友谊万岁 难道只是幼时的异想天开?

儿时 只因天真无邪 大家满足于简单的快乐
少时 我们志趣相投 每天的日子只环绕着你
当时 你是我的一切 欢喜悲伤喜怒哀乐 是你

可是今非昔比 以往的美丽 只换来今日偶尔的回忆
真的 当时间向你招手时 一切都会变模糊 化为尘风离你远去

坚持

偶尔 沮丧会来拜访你
你想赶走这不速之客
但却力不从心

偶尔 灰心会来讥讽你
你尝试当作耳边风
但字字句句已烙印在心里

你到处寻觅 寻觅希望的踪迹
你以为找到了 原来只是泡影
多少次 放弃总是追上你
想拒它以千里外 但已心力交瘁

再抬头瞻望
似乎看到希望
真是希望 还是放弃的伪装?

挣扎

也许我们都要学会长大

我沉默 不是因为反抗
我说话 不是因为让步
我哭泣 不是因为脆弱
我微笑 不是因为讨好

我只是在挣扎
是无心 或是有意
是驯服 或是挑战
是爱你 或是恨你

也许我们都要学会长大
或许 你也是